so tell me now,
and i won't ask again

will you still love me
tomorrow?

why?

11/14/13

those who know me know that im happy with myself,

that i wouldnt change a thing about me,

and that i wouldnt adjust anything i was given.

why is it that recently,

i eat the least that i can?

why is it that i want to lose weight?

why arent i happy with who i am?

because im constantly being reminded 

that im not perfect

and that if i want to be liked and accepted by society

i must change.

im being told that if i adjust myself just a tinyyyyyy bit

its guaranteed that ill be magically happy with myself within a second.

but why.

ill fit in so much that my social status will be elevated and that will bring

a sense of happiness?

what kind of shit is this?

maybe im just sick and tired of being judged through my exterior

maybe i like myself who i am and im upset that others dont...

well whatever it is,

live your life your way.

who knows you better than yourself?

who loves you more, than how you should love yourself?

ugh. what am i thinking.

im just angry that i gained a pound

and angry that i starve myself. 

The Happy Ending

THIS WAS TOO EMBARRASSING TO READ SO IT WAS DELETED
AND FOREVER
GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Introducing myself :D

Hello, my name is Jocelyn. I was born in Alameda but raised in Oakland. I currently attend at Urban Promise Academy. I love writing poetry and painting. I also love to hang out with my friends! :D I'm basically a 14 year old girl who has too many dreams. In the future, I plan to go to college and to become a counselor, even if I don't get payed a lot at it, I still want to do counseling. I hate seeing decisions going wrong, and I love to help when it comes to social helps and issues, and since I believe that I've been through this a lot, I feel like I can give some nice advice to about every situation. I've been through many tough roads and I've sure learned a lot that will help me in my counseling career. Here are some things about myself: I love music, LOVE music, and won't be able to live without it. Well, thanks for reading this!