those who know me know that im happy with myself,
that i wouldnt change a thing about me,
and that i wouldnt adjust anything i was given.
why is it that recently,
i eat the least that i can?
why is it that i want to lose weight?
why arent i happy with who i am?
because im constantly being reminded
that im not perfect
and that if i want to be liked and accepted by society
i must change.
im being told that if i adjust myself just a tinyyyyyy bit
its guaranteed that ill be magically happy with myself within a second.
but why.
ill fit in so much that my social status will be elevated and that will bring
a sense of happiness?
what kind of shit is this?
maybe im just sick and tired of being judged through my exterior
maybe i like myself who i am and im upset that others dont...
well whatever it is,
live your life your way.
who knows you better than yourself?
who loves you more, than how you should love yourself?
ugh. what am i thinking.
im just angry that i gained a pound
and angry that i starve myself.
